The Infamous Quest Blog

WELL WELL WELL 1ST OFF I NEVER LEFT WHEN I  SAID I WAS BECAUSE MY MOM WAS PUT IN THE HOSPITAL ON MY BIRTHDAYSO I HAVE BEEN HERE STILL MAKING SURE THAT ALL IS WELL WITH HER BEFORE I LEAVE, AND I CAN TELLYOU GUYS THIS I FEEL GREAT AS OF TODAY IM REBORN THIS IS A NEW MAN ON A NEW PATH OF EXCELLENCE CAUSE I GOT HURT MORE THAN YOU KNOW AND I JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE, I HATE IT THAT IT TAKES ME TO BE HURT AND DONE SO WRONG FOR ME TO GET IT THATS PEOPLE IN MY CIRCLE ARE NOT FOR ME ITS STUPID BUT ITS WHO I AM I FEEL THAT NOT EVERYBODY IN THIS WORLD ARE MONSTERS BUT I HAVE LEARNED ALOT FROM MY EXPERIENCEAND I TELL YOU IM NOT ANGRY AT MYSELF NOR DO I HATE ANYBODY GOD BLESS THEM CAUSE THEY WOKE ME UP, MERRY XMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL AND IN 2009 WE ARE GONNA HAVE ONE GREAT RIDE CAUSAE I PLAN TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE CAUSE ITS THAT TIME I CARE FORALOT OF PEOPLE AND THEY ALSO ME BUT I HAVEBEEN IN A WORLD OF HELL AND IM COMNG OUT THE PIT AND WALKING INTHE EYES OF THE LORD.

WELL ITS OFFICIAL I WILL BE LEAVING THE STATE OF NEW YORK BOUND FOR THE STATE OF GEORGIA FRIDAY DECEMBER 5TH 2008 AND I WILL NOT BE RETURNING ANYTIME SOON.  I HAVE ALOT TO SAY ABOUT A FEW THINGS CAUSE THIS WILLBE MY LAST ENTRY BEFORE I  BECOME REBORN.

GOD IS A HEALER AND HE HAS MADE MY PATH REALITY I AM BLESSED NO MATTER ALL THE DRAMA I WENT THROUGH AND ALL THE HURT I HAVE RECIVED FROM MANY PEOPLE I HVE SO LET IT ALL GO AND MY SOUL FEELS GREAT BUT THERE IS ONE THING OUT OF EVERYTHING IM GONNA MISS AND THAT IS ANTHONY I HAVE PUT OUT THERE TO HIM THAT I NEED TO HAVE A SERIOUS TALK AND I HAVE SAID IT MANY TIMES AND I FEEL THAT ITS NOT HEARD AND THAT IS WHY I GUESS WE ARE NOT AS CLOSE AS WE USE TO BE, EVERYONE NEEDS THAT 1 PERSON THERE THAT WILL KICK YOU IN YOUR ASS AND MAKE SURE YOU DO RIGHT LIKE YOUR BACKBONE THATS WHAT I HAVE BEEN NEEDING FOR ALOT OF TIME BUT ALL I GET IS EVERYONE TELLING ME WHAT I NEED TO DO WHY I NEED TO DO IT AND WHEN BUT WHEN THE TIME COMES I DONT GET THE PUSH LIKE LET ME EXPLAIN, IF YOU KNOW YOU GOTTA GO TO CHURCH AND THAT MORNING YOU ARE STILL IN BED THAT PERSON IM TALKING ABOUT WILL CALL YOU EARLY THAT MORNING AND TELL YOU TO GET THE FUCK UP AND LETSGO OR THEY WILL BE AT YOUR DOOR AND MAKE YOU GET UP THAT WAY THATS ALL I EVER WANTED JUST SOMBODY TO BE THERE WITH ME BOY OH BOY GOD HAS BEEN THERE NO MATTER WHAT AND ALL OF THIS HAS BEEN A LESSON TO ME AND THAT IS TO NOT EXPECT ANY THING OUT OF ANYONE CAUSE I TEND TO HURT MYSELF IN THE LONG RUN YES YES YES I HAVE MADE MISTAKES LIKE CRAZY AND DONE THINGS I HATE MYSELF FOR BUT THEY HAD TO HAPPEN THEY HAD TO GO DOWN I HAD TO CRY I HAD TO HURT BE DISSAPOINTED BECAUSE IM NOW STONGER THAN EVER I HAD A SERIOUS DRUG PROBLEM AND WAS TOLD WHAT I NEED TO DO  OVER AND OVER BUT NOT 1 TIME WAS THERE ANYBODY IN MY CIRCLE THAT SAT DOWN WITH ME TO A CUP OF TEA OR ANYTHING AND TALKED TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING SERIOUS AND TO ME I FEEL IM NOT REALLY LOVED BY THEM AND IT HURTS IT MAKES STEVEN NOT QUEST RUN AWAY AND I BEGIN TO GO WHERE I CAN GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND I GET HIGH AND REGRET I GET HIGH AFTER THE HIGH IS GONE BUT NOMORE BABY IM OVER IT I KNOW THE PLACE OF EVERYBODY AROUND ME CAUSE I HAVE PUT MY HANDS UP HIGH AND ASKED GOD TO SHOW ME WHAT I REALLY NEED TO SEE AND I BELIVE HE HAS SHOWED ME .

THE DAY BEFORE I LEAVE WILL BE MY 28TH BIRTHDAY AND I HAVE NOT MADE ANY PLANS FOR IT AND THIS IS THE 1ST TIME I HAVE EVER BEEN A FEW DAYS AWAY FROM MY BIRTHDAY AND NOT MADE ANY  PLANS OR HAVE ANYBODY MAKE ANY FOR ME AND YOU KNOW THAT HURTS LIKE HELL BUT WHO CARES ITS MY BIRTHDAY NOT THERES SO I PLAN TO SPEND MY BIRTHDAY PACKING TO LEAVE I WILL MAKE ME A SMALL CAKE AND SING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF AND CELEBRATE MYSELF AND GOD PLUS I DONT MEAN ANY DISSRESPECT TO ANYBODY IN MY CIRCLE EVERYTHING I WRITE HERE COMES FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND I MEAN WELL IM JUDT LETTI NG IT BE KNPOWN WHAT I HAVE BEEN FEELING FOR A LONG TIME I YEARN FOR REAL LOVE AND I WANT SOMEBODY BY MYSIDE WHO REALLY WANTS TO BE THERE AND SHOWS IT WITHOUT ME SEEING IT WITH MY OWN EYES I WANNA FEEL IT IN MY HEART CAUSE I TELL YOU THIS THEN I AM DONE………….

I HAVE KEPT ALOT OF PAIN IN MY HEART AND TODAY IM LETTING IT ALL OUT THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW CAUSE I HAVE TO CLEAN MY SOUL ILL CRY LIKE HELL AS MUCH AS I CAN ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT I NEED TO SO I CAN RELEASE IT ALL AND MOVE ON LORD IT HELPS ME AND I DONT FEEL LESS OF A MAN TO CRY LOVE AND PEACE TO YOU ALL AND MY NEXT ENTRY WILL BE FROM THE SOUTH AS I EMBARK ON A NEW BEGINING AND I HOPE THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE UP HERE READ THIS AND UNDERSTAND CAUSE IM NOT GONNA LOOK FOR ANYTHING MORE OR LESS OUT OF ANYBODY CAUSE I CANT ANYMORE.

Ok this is my latest drama. 1st off im planning on being in Atlanta for MLK weekend but i might be getting there more early than expected because my 1st cousin in milledgevile just had a stroke and she does not want a home attendant taking care of her she wants family and my name came up, see my cousin betty i love her very much we are very close and i dont mind taking care of her but not knowing how long its gonna take for her to get better is holding me back from doing the things i need to do for myself cause im gonna have to relocate there and stay with her 24/7 and i just dont know what gonna happen but im gonna be ready for anything but i do know its not gonna be easy, im gonna call her today and get all the info i need and ill let you all know what gonna happen so stay tuned.

This is the day that the lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad it in.

I have been getting some good comments from you guys and to tell you the truth it means alot to me that you have taken your time out to give me feedback and trust me i read it all, i wonder alot if anybody really gets what i be writing cause it comes from the heart its not just words i just pop up on here they are my true feelings and i use my blog as a outlet cause your comments help me getthrough it all.

I really feel great right now things have been going so well and im so proud of myself, i have learned to go with the flow of what has been happening and understand that the lord is making my path clear so my blessing can have a easy route to me and i get it cause thenegative people around me are dropping like fly’s and thats a sign that they dont need apart in my life cause they block my blessings and they way i havebeen treated by them hurt alot but you know what I FORGIVE THEM cause my soul cant be clean as the lord wants it to be if i keep hate laying around cause the best way to kill negative karma is with positive karma and i feel now more than ever i can do anything i put my mind to.

P.S.

GET YOURSELVES READY FOR JANUARY 20TH 2009 WE WILL BE SEEING THE MOST HEART WARMING EVENT IN HISTORY AS WE SEE THE 44TH PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES SWORN IN TO OFFICE AND HE’S AN AFRICAN AMERICAN MAN FROM THE ISLAND OF HAWAII AND HIS NAME IS PRESIDENT BARAK OBAMA.

Whats good everybody?   I have not made an entry to my blog for a minute and im sorry for the delay, But i have been doing alot of thinking and trying to make the right choices instead of just jumping at them and there have been a few things i never saw coming that crushed me so bad i had to see myself starting to put a brick wall up in front of me now where ever i go cause i cant trust not 1 mutha fuka, i made choices that where not the right ones when i knew for sure the outcome would be bad but they had to go the way they did cause everything happenes for a reason i belive and you just gotta roll with it and figure out the message that God is trying to send you, i have got the message so loud and clear its funny but im gonna do what i gotta do and that is to accept it all and handle it the correct way that it should be handeled not crying over a lost friend or nothing like that just knowing what the deal is and keeping yourself away from it in all ways thats what im gonna and gotta do now and im gonna blunt about it and if something rears its head im gonna check it and put whoever in there place as a gentleman just as im sure they would wanna be spoken tO CAUSE I KNOW FOR SURE who my real friends are and who the fake ones are too and im an adult and im gonna be adult about it.

Im not gonna say anymore about it cause i know what to do

Ok i just had to write about this song i heard from Joe just yesterday while i was talking to my director from BBU Entertainment Mr Deniro Black, he sent me a link to the new website www.BBUEntertainment.com and this song started playing and i was instanly hooked.

As an artist joe sure does not get the credit hes deserves and he should lots of his music i love but they need to show him some love like whoa, im waiting to see how the video turns out cause trust me ill be downloading it.

Whats good everybody? I have been feeling great these past few weeks and things have been looking up so i have decided to make some very very serious things happen for my personal growth and well being, so 1st off i will be making 2 seperate blog entries im gonna keep up with my friday entries but im gonna do something a lil different like on mondays i will also make entries but these entries will be videos it will give you guys a bit more feeling to what i have to say you can get a better idea of how im feeling and get a much deeper look at how im keeping it sexy (lol).

Next i have been thinking about relocating, it has been on my mind for a long time now and i think its time to put it in action so i sent a very dear friend of mine in Atlanta my resume cause he knows alot of people and has got alot of pull to see if he can help get it goin for me cause if he can do so it will make me feel alot more secure in moving there cause atleast ill have some type of income and ill just put everything else together while im there and get myself settled in, i feel like i should be doing this cause it runs through my mind like water runs down a waterfall and i know my boi Ant does not bullshit so i know he is gonna do his best to help me out and most of all im gonna really sit down and talk to God about it cause i feel it will be a good move for me but then i feel its gonna be hard for me, there are so many things i have to leave here in nyc that i dont wanna leave like the one special dude in my life my baby Anthony, he sure does not wanna see me leave the city cause that will make us more distant but im gonna have a talk with him also just so he understands what im going through and how i feel this move would help me get the ball rolling but he did let me know one thing that if i need to go away for a while or something like that he would be there with me every step of the way and when and if i decide to return to NYC he will be there waiting for me cause he loves me more than anything and i belive him and what im doing includes him also and that it will make me much more of a better man mental, emotional, and very spiritual and that my love for him will never fade.

So in closing get ready for a ride guys like no other i have been on such a roller coaster in my life and it is time to follow in the footsteps of our soon to be president obama that change is gonna come and my fucking birthday is right around the corner so a good gift to myself would be to get everything right and change things for the better way before 2009 comes rolling in.

Ok i got 2 of the best phone calls this past weekend that lets me know how blessed i am and how things are gonna be alright indeed.

My best friend in the entire world James Spencer passed away many years ago and i was very close to his mother and his lil sister Fay & Dede so this weekend i was laying in bed and the phone rang it was Fay i was so surprised to hear from her, we spoke about my aunts death and a few other things but the main thing was about Dede the last time i saw her she was about 12 or 13 years old Fay tells me that she is 21 years old and in college in upstate new york and she gave me her number so i called her but she did not pickup.

But no more than 15 minutes later she called me back and oh boy i felt so happy she was screaming telling me how much she miss me and man do i miss her too i just remember lil Dede but she is all grown up, we sent each other updated pictures and she is a FOX. We are supose to see and hang out with each other around thanksgiving that’s when she comes home for a break from school so i will let you guys know how much fun we had and how we painted this town red.

Glory to the highest of the high and good morning. This week was great no problems or bullshit and my mommy came home from her long month vacation and as always me and her began our smack talk and oh boi was i glad she came back home it was boring without her around cause there is nobody i talk smack with better than her.

She enjoyed herself and i was happy about that she got relax and get waited on for a change but as soon as she got back the knuckle head started to argue, now that was to much and since she been back that all he has been doing he got instantly lazy and did not wanna do nothing like his maid is back and shit so i put that that shit in order and why i did he went and got a drink,  oh lawd an entire 5th of bacardi and the party began, i got a lil pissed cause they both where getting twisted but there was only a lil bit of yelling cause by nobody but him but they did not go all night they stopped before all my children even came on now i was really surprised at that so i just said he happy she is home let them celebrate cause aint no party like a annie and alex party so shit i got a blunt and joined in.

Whats goin on my peoples? I feel great this morning cause the path of Pure Excellence is at hand, i booked 3 shows for the next few weeks and i gotta get started getting my skits down and ready and that will not take much time cause i have been waiting for this time cause i miss performing so much and truth be told i had to get shit in order cause i feel i fell off big time i was not the person i know that i really am i was not dancing or nothing not even goin out to the clubs or bars i became such a home body not that there’s anything wrong with that but i just said to myself im worth much more than this, fake friends, doing hard drugs, and selling myself short and most of all NOT GIVING MY LORD PRAISE i owe him so much cause he is the one who made me who i am today the man that is writing this blog entry right now and i promise you this that dude that was doing all that horrible shit and getting into horrible shit IS NO MORE.

Just to keep this short and let you know what i have got on my plate, im goin to technical school, gonna start my own podcast show of me mixing today’s best dance music and beyond, but most important i’m gonna be a pure gentlemen at all costs im to old to be playing around and doing nothing don’t get me wrong i enjoy writing my blog cause of all the positive feedback i get like from Matthew thanks a lot for your kind words and encouragement it means a lot.

So in closing i just wanna say this i know a lot of things that have happened to me are no fault but my own but right hand to GOD i am not gonna change for nothing i have been in far more crazy shit but what i know is everything that brings me down and gets me depressed will only give me more power to stand tall, dust my shoulders off, and keep on movin.

Peace & Blessings