The Infamous Quest Blog

WELL I HAVE SPENT A MONTH HERE AND NOW IT TIME TO GO BACK HOME, BUT I DID NOT THINKI WAS GONNA BE LEAVING SO SOON BUT I GUESS THAT WAS ALL IN GOD PLAN AND IM GONNA GO ALONG WITH IT CAUSE I DID EVERYTHING I COULD FOR THIS WOMAN BUT SHE ACTS LIKE ITS MY JOB TO BE HER SLAVE ALL DAY TODAY SHE HAS BEEN A BITCH CAUSE SHE WAS IN THE LIVINGROOM AND HER FEET GOD COLD AND SHE ASKED THE GIRL THAT COMES TO CLEAN NAMED FANTA TO GET HER SOME LONG SOCKS BUT SHE WAS ON HER WAY TO THE BATHROOM AT THE SAME TIME SO SHE ASKED ME WHERE DOES BETTY GOT SOME SOCKS THIS WOMAN JUMPED OUT HER SHOES DONT BE ASKING HIM FOR NOTHING YOU ASK ME AND WENT ON AND ON TALKING ABOUT I DOT KNOW WHERE NOTHING IS AT AND IMNOT THE ONE WHO PAYS HER MIND YOU THE GIRL PUT IN WORK AND SHE SUPOSE TO PAY HER FOR 2 WEEKS WHICH COMES UP TO $200 SHE TOLD THE GIRL TODAY THAT SHE IS GONNA GIVE HER $60 THAT GIRL WAS PISSED OFF I DONT THINK SHE COMING BACK ANYTIME SOON AND HER COUSIN TURNED OUT TO BE THE 7TH CNA THAT CAME HERE THIS MORNING AND SHE SAID THE SAME THING AFTER SPENDING JUST 3 HOURS WITH HER THAT HER MOUTH IS MEAN AND SHE WORKS YOU TO DEATH.

IM NOT GONNA GET INTO IT ANYMORE I WAS SUPOSE TO BE LEAVING TODAY BUT HAD TO CHANGE MY TICKET CAUSE I HAVE NO MONEY TO TRAVEL WITH BUT I HOPE I CAN BORROW SOMETHING FROM SOMEBODY CAUSE IM TIRED OF BEING LET DOWN IM GONNA DEPEND ON MYSELF AND THE MAN THAT I AM WITH CAUSE IT HURTS ALOT WHEN SOMEBODY TELLS YOU THERE ARE GONNA HELP YOU AND THEY DONT AND THAT HAPPENED 3 TIMES WHILE I WAS HERE WITH 3 DIFFERENT PEEPS BUT WHATEVER IM JUST GONNA GET MY ASS HOME AND START ALL OVER AGAIN SHE IS MAD CAUSE IM LEAVING BUT NOBODY IS GONNA TAKE THE HELL SHE BEEN GIVING ME FOR LONG SHE WAKES ME UP AT 2:30AM, 4:30AM 5:30AM AND EXPECTS ME TO BE UP TO COOK AND GIVE HER MEDS AND BE HER FUCKING SLAVE AND SHE GIVESME NOTHING AND TALK ABOUT ME LIKE A DOG HALF MY FAMILY CALLED HERE TODAY DIGGIN INTO HER ASS AND NOW SHE GOTTAFIND SOMEBODY ELSE TO TAKE THE SHIT, IKNOW IM GONNA AND I HAVE BEENGETTING MYBLESSINGS FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE FOR HER SHES STRONG WALKING WITHOUT A KANE GETTING HERSELF OUT OF BED AND JUST DOING THINGS NOBODY SAID SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO DO IN THE MONTHS TIME WE HAD SO THE LORD WILL BLESS ME BUT I JUST CANT TAKE THE MOUTH AND BEING CALLED ALL KINDS OF NAMES.

well i have been here for two weeks now and alot has been goin on so let me start from the top. my cousin is a good lady but she has not been appriciating what i have been here doing for her cause she makes me feel like im her slave she talks to me like shit, i clean shit off of her, make her meals, wash her up, mop,sweep,walk her dog, balance her check book,shop,walk from place toplace and i dont ever get a thank you and im about have had enough.

I came down here for 1 reason and that is because family was in need i dont ask her for anything nor do i want anything but for her to get back to health but she is so use to being  independent she keep trying to do things thyat she know she cant do like she got upone morning at 4:30am to let the dog out and she dropped her kane she bent over to pick it up and she hit the floor and i had to pick her up and she’s no supermodel she has 204lbs on her but i got her up with ease but thats just the half she has got one HOT mouth on her  she calls me out my name and expects me to do what her home health aid is supose to do cause in 2 weeks she has gone through 5 of them cause they all say the same thing that she talks down to them like they are not even human and it seems she has no care for anything and its your job to do what she says no matter what and now i feel like goin home because of the same thing but i start feeling guilty because i think like that but i cant cause i talked it over with my god and i know i have done what i can do for her and done everything i have with love and i dont talk about anything but her mouth i have no problem cleaning her and so on but when you get talked to like a piece of meat that shit does not feel good it feels even worse when its family and you travel as far as i did and i came to help her get her health back, some family down here have been saying alot of shit cause they know abouit her mouth and they come over here and complain oin the phone to her about how im doing things but since i have been here each of her therapist have seen so much good comeout of my stay cause i tell her your not handicapped your a grown woman and your stronger than you know and they tahnk me all the time but out of all the bullshit my family down here talk about how many of they lifted there hands to come over here to take care of her, they talk and talk but talk about how bad her mouth is and how many people dont wanna come over here, it just make me sick i want your advice anyone tell me what is the smart thing to do cause im torn

Well i got to the airport around 4:00pm and i got so dizzy cause i was saying to myself that its really happening im leaving NYC and i had to get something to get rid of the butterflies i had flying in my stomach so i started on to security and i said to myself oh boi here we go and sho nuff we had a problem before that Delta had me pay $15 just to check my bag and then cause my bag was 20lbs over they charged me $90 i just payed it and went on to security but this ghetto chick there gave me hell about my id but a supervisor came and let me know there was no problem just extra security measure.

So as i walked to the gate things just started goin through my head about the task at hand and what i was going to get on this flight for and i started feeling a bit better i just hate the fact i left my mom and alex and  i know they are gonna miss the hell out of me but all in all im down here for a purpose and that purpose is to help my cousin get better and to take time out to mke myself a better person and become the man i know that i am so i really have no regrets for leaving but there are alot of people im gonna miss such as Kevin & CJ you guys have been the best family a boi could have you have showed me that with effort and comitment you can do anything and that im more smarter than i know i am and i promise that the next time i come to nyc i will be more than what i left the city as im gonna be a whole new man with a neww lease on life cause i owe it all to the man upstairs he made thr path and i have begun to walk it and im gonna make him proud.

So i am now a southern bell, Georgia peach or whatever you wanna call it just know that the kid is gonna make yall proud and MLK WEEKEND IN ATLANTA is gonna be the 1st time i get shit poppin and continue it all with the swearing in of our new president obama.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU AND YOURS.  I had a rocky 2008 man and i dont regret anything good or bad that has happened to me i said a great prayer, watched the ball drop and took my black ass to bed, i have been taking today with stride so far cause the day i get on tht plane is coming faster than ever now and i feel like im not gonna be able to say my goodbyes to alot of people but i m just moving at a fast rate cause i wanna be sure i didi everything i needed to do and be ready way ahead of time.

So today is a brand new year and im starting it off just taking a look back at everything that went on in 2008 and i see one thing that makes me feel great about 2009 and that is no matter all the shit i went through somehow i grew everytime, i learned something new about myself, my faith and connection with God got stronger so baby im alright i know nobody is perfect and you have to make the best out of everything but to evolve and grow it takes wisdom and you will be put through many obstcules and we as humans are not strong enough to take on things we know we have no power over but we try and try again, but just stop “and let go, and let God”.

It Works Baby Trust Me On That.

ITS 2009  ITS TIME TO GET YA SWAGA ON.

WELL WELL WELL 1ST OFF I NEVER LEFT WHEN I  SAID I WAS BECAUSE MY MOM WAS PUT IN THE HOSPITAL ON MY BIRTHDAYSO I HAVE BEEN HERE STILL MAKING SURE THAT ALL IS WELL WITH HER BEFORE I LEAVE, AND I CAN TELLYOU GUYS THIS I FEEL GREAT AS OF TODAY IM REBORN THIS IS A NEW MAN ON A NEW PATH OF EXCELLENCE CAUSE I GOT HURT MORE THAN YOU KNOW AND I JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE, I HATE IT THAT IT TAKES ME TO BE HURT AND DONE SO WRONG FOR ME TO GET IT THATS PEOPLE IN MY CIRCLE ARE NOT FOR ME ITS STUPID BUT ITS WHO I AM I FEEL THAT NOT EVERYBODY IN THIS WORLD ARE MONSTERS BUT I HAVE LEARNED ALOT FROM MY EXPERIENCEAND I TELL YOU IM NOT ANGRY AT MYSELF NOR DO I HATE ANYBODY GOD BLESS THEM CAUSE THEY WOKE ME UP, MERRY XMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL AND IN 2009 WE ARE GONNA HAVE ONE GREAT RIDE CAUSAE I PLAN TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE A GREAT LIFE CAUSE ITS THAT TIME I CARE FORALOT OF PEOPLE AND THEY ALSO ME BUT I HAVEBEEN IN A WORLD OF HELL AND IM COMNG OUT THE PIT AND WALKING INTHE EYES OF THE LORD.